The Twins

I haven't been on here lately, and so much has changed in the last year or so. I figure I should write down the recent changes and activities in our life so I don't forget exactly how I felt about them. David and I were very blessed to get pregnant again and find out we were having twins. I had the opportunity to carry the twins for 14 weeks 6 days before our Heavenly Father called them back home. I love these twins and will forever be grateful for the amount of time I had "with" them. My heart breaks knowing they are not in side of me anymore. I'm sad I do not feel their little bubbles, and flutters. The hardest part for me was seeing them on the screen moving around and seeing those healthy hearts beat, and then being excited to see them again a few short weeks later and they are just laying lifeless together. I knew when I saw them on the screen something wasn't right. I was sent over to the hospital to have more ultrasounds done to see if we could find a heartbeat at all. I walked over to the hospital with Indie in my arms. I was crying and hugging that beautiful girl of mine and being so grateful to have her in my life. She brings me more joy than anything else in this world. I Called David to come to the hospital immediately. It was about 7:50 am and he couldn't make it to the appointment because he had a conference call at work from 7:00am to 8:00am that he had to be on. I kept calling his work phone and cell phone over and over knowing he couldn't answer yet. He called me back right at 8:00 thinking I knew the sexes of the baby or something and I couldn't wait to tell him. I was in tears and he knew something was wrong and left work right then. A woman who worked at the hospital could see me crying and talking on the phone while chasing Indie around. She asked me if she could watch Indie. I told her yes and she took Indie into the gift shop to look around. The lady was the director over all the volunteers at the hospital. She was running the gift shop and gave Indie a few things from the gift shop. Indie got a bear, crayons, and coloring book. This woman closed the gift shop and came all over the hospital with David and I so she could watch Indie. We stayed at the hospital and Dr. Laters office for what felt like most of the day. Since I got there at 7:30 am and got home late that afternoon. Dr. Later gave us the option to allow the babies to come naturally or to get a D&C. I thought that I would want them to come on their own but after talking to him he thought it might be too hard on me being so far along that emotionally it wouldn't be good for me to see them. I decided to do a D&C the next afternoon. Later that night we went to bed sad. I was so exhausted from crying all day. I woke up at 2:30 am with the worst contractions of my life. (well compared to Indie) And I say the worst because with Indie the pain wasn't too bad because I knew I was getting a baby in return. I knew this time I would go through pain and get nothing. I was up all night with contractions and vomiting. I couldn't wait to get to my appointment at this time. I was scheduled for surgery at 12:00 pm but I called the dr and he told me to come in at 9:00. Kim drove down and watched Indie for us and made us dinner. Indie fell in love with kim the second Kim got out of her car, and that made me feel a whole lot better leaving her. I never leave Indie! Indie usually screams to go to other people but kim got out of the car and Indie was putting her arms out to her. Kim took her from me and said are you ready to have fun today, and Indie said yep! They must have had fun because Indie screamed for 15 minutes after kim left. She did not want Bo BO, Zoe Zoe, or kim to leave. Well we made it to the hospital and Dr. Later did another ultrasound for us to put our minds at ease knowing that they were really gone. The placenta had big black holes in it and was getting ready to leave my body on its own. He said I would probably lose everything on my own with in the next few days. The pain I was going through was so bad that I couldn't imagine it for a few more days. I went through it for 8 hours and that was enough for me. The nurses and doctors were great. My anesthesiologist's name was Dr. Blood! How funny is that? He was probably the funniest person I have talked to. He told me he has put people under thousands and thousands of times and it never gets old for him to say lets count to five and watch us pass out. He made the I.V. process a lot more comfortable for me since he was telling jokes and what not. My surgery was about 45 mins and then I was in recovery for a few hours. I feel so much better now. Pain free and at ease. I am incredibly sad to not have these babies with me but I can't wait to see them again some day. I know that having the gospel in my life and having a loving Heavenly Father has made this whole situation that much easier for me. I know where my babies are and I know they are happy and waiting for me. Having Indie makes it a lot easier too. She keeps me smiling with all her hugs, kisses, and laughing. Melts my heart. I don't know what I would do with out her. I am also soooo grateful for all my family and friends. I have received so much love from everyone. Text messages, phone calls, treats, cards, flowers, meals, babysitting, getting sent chocolate covered strawberries!! Just so much love. My neighbor texts me everyday. She brings me things everyday too. Having so many wonderful people in my life has made me realize how loved and blessed I am. I love my family for going through this pain with me and crying with me. I really do have the best family in the world. And I am so grateful to have a sister who lives close to me who will do anything for me and offer herself to help at anytime of the day or night. I know that this will be hard for me to over come but I also know that we will have more children.

7 months

These months really are flying by. I can't believe Indie is going on 8 months. I feel like I just had her. Shes learning so many new things.
She now:
Says Dada and mama
will roll around the living room to get something or somewhere
will pick up her little puffs on her own and eat them
her bottom 2 incisors came in.
She weighs 15.9 lbs.
We just love this little baby!! I love all her knew faces she makes!!

6 months

Indie is 6 months old!? How did that happen? Well technically she will be 7 months in a week but this post is better late than never right? We sure do love our baby girl! She has been so much fun and changing so quickly.
Indies stats are:
14.9 lbs
24.8 in
and I can't remember her head circumference but her head is a lot bigger than her body. Normal for a baby right?? :)
Her shots went well. The chunkier the legs the easier.
Indie loves to:
laugh
jump
scream
give kisses
jib jab
roll over
scoot
her favorite food is bananas
she is such a good eater. She will eat anything I give her except blueberries, and if I add banana to all other foods she will eat it all up!
Words can't express how much I love her.
Stop growing up Baby girl!!!

I want to go...

Home.. To TVA # 235. I want to be in my ant infested apartment and be sandy, sweaty, and sticky! Ohhhh Hawaii I want to be there. I beg David everyday to go back. He said maybe in a few years we can move back for good!!! I sure hope. I do love being in Utah with family but there is just something about hawaii! So lets just all move there!

Rolling

Indie has mastered rolling over. She first rolled over right before she was three months and I was shocked. She then just kind of gave up on it and would do it here and there. So video taping it was always a challenge. Now when she is laying down all she wants to do is roll over. I love that she is learning so many new things. I feel like my little baby is gone though. I look at her newborn pictures and she was so small. Now shes my little ball of energy and fun. I can't imagine my life with out her. We just love her so much.

Zoey Jane Watts

Zoey is here!! And she is absolutely adorable. She has sooo much thick black hair like Indie did! I love it. Makes me miss Indie when she was first born. David, Indie, and I went to visit Jeremy, kim, and Zoey, but Indie couldn't go in the hospital so David and I took turns with her in the car so we could see Zoey. We sure love this little baby and we are happy she is here! I can't believe how big Indie looks and feels compared to Zoey!

Happy Halloween

We had a pretty good Halloween weekend this year. On Friday I took Indie to Davids work for some trick or treating. David dressed up as a Hippie and he looked pretty funny. I wish I would have taken a picture. He was a little embarrassed to ride trax to work that morning. Indie looked adorable in her Jack-o-lantern costume. On Saturday we went to our ward trunk or treat and we ate way too much chili. It was really good and we saw so many cute costumes. There was another little girl who was born a couple weeks before Indie who had the same costume. On Halloween I new David would get home from work late so I made homemade chili and cornbread and we just went to the gym. David really wanted to hand out candy but as soon as he got home we were upstairs and the door bell rang and David booked it down stairs to grab the candy and realize his pants were undone and open since he was changing for the gym, so he zips his pants up and fixes his belt to open the door to find no one. And so we waited a bit cause he wanted some more kids to come and no one came so we left to walk to the gym and all these kids were coming around and David said, "should I go home really quick and give them candy?" hahah I told him to just go to the gym cause it was getting late anyways. But after reading the news I'm glad we didn't hand candy out. And I plan on just leaving a bowl out in the years to come. People knocking and getting slashed in the face with a knife or people knocking and then shooting the person when they open the door! Geez what is our world coming to? Well all in all it was a good Halloween weekend. Looking forward to Thanksgiving now! Excited to see the family.